“Have you ever stared into the rain?
Thought the clouds would never disappear..
Have you ever screamed out in the dark?
Thinking no one else could hear..”
I’m in a bad place today. I’m mourning about five friendships that are over or will be over by the end of the month.. One of them is the Boi. Another is my “best” chick friend. Another 5 yr close friendship with another guy. And two kids that I thought coulda been cool.. but it turns out I was wrong. I was wrong about all of them. It hurts so much.
Its not fair. I did my best and I was good to them. I put myself out there, and it didn’t matter how much I shared none of them ever understood me. Some of them didn’t try to know me. And I’m the one upset, and I’m the one crying, and they probably don’t even care. I’m only hurting myself.
Wallah I’m so upset, I’m just shattered. I cut my social life in half in that one swift blow. Already I regret everything, I miss them. Why? Why did you betray me? What did I do to deserve this treatment from you? What did I do to you? To YOU? After all of my loyalty.. After my care, and conversations, and effort, and help, and LOVE.
What am I going to do now? The future doesn’t look sunny anymore. Whats the point of even trying, no-ones ever gonna get you. They don’t see your good intentions, or they don’t care.
See what I mean? I’m having a really bad day.
“You mixed me up for someone
Who’d fall apart without you
Yeah you broke my heart for the first time
But I’ll get over you
Its hard to find the reasons
Who could see the rhyme?
I guess that we were seasons out of time
I guess you didn’t know me..”
